I managed to make it until 10pm today before completely breaking down for a while. I keep expecting to see JDog behind me, or thinking that I hear her. It's only when I'm super busy that I'm distracted enough to not realize she's not here. And I don't want to go somewhere else because then I'd worry about who was watching her, and then keep remembering she doesn't need watching any more.
Anyway, I don't think I'm really up to peopling at all, but I have to work tomorrow, so yay. Fuck.
Faith Collapsing is a host set up by me (Steven Saus) with the same sensibility of the BBS I ran back in the 1990s - I set it up for me, but folks I personally know are welcome to join if they like.